It's so complicated):

I thought things will work, but i'm wrong.
It started all over again.
I dont know why.
I just couldnt find someone who can understand me, and sit down with me and listen to me.
I just couldnt.
Not even one i can find.
I left with today and tomoorrow and thursday i'm taking my MYE.
Can you imagine me, without taking any books for the past few days?
I just sitting down here, going everywhere with only thinking abt my stuff and not STUDIES!
Serriously, i hate the new HUDA!
where's the old HUDA??
It just complicated that i have to stop my journey.
I couldnt walk even one step!
I'm falling and it's hard for me to stand again.
No one there's to hold his/her hand to carry me up.
No one!
Arghh, what a sickening life i have now.
I am Secondary 4 and things happen this year?
Why is it must be this year?
Why cant it be before or after?


If i have the chance to restart it again, i will but its too late.
Its really too late!
I feel like screaming.
I feel like killing myself.
I feel like overdosing myself.
But, this is all BULLSHIT!
I am angry at myself for doing this mistake and i just couldnt help myself!
Whats the used now?

Where should i start?
How should i start?
WHen should i start?
I really dont know how!
I just need someone to tell me what i should do now!
Thats all!

School was alright today.
Mr Arman said this "Huda, i want you to get distinction for MATHS. if you neevr get, i will make sure you stay back everyday."
OH MY GODNESS!

kak ctee, i miss you.

Anyone, feel free to give me two tight slap and asked me to WAKE UP!