Currently:not feeling well, confused, complicated.

But who cares?

Today went to school late. Call Brenda to go to school late.
So decided to wait at her opposite bus stop at 7.45.
Lesson per normal. Mr Arman didnt come to school today.
So i cant concentrate cux, im not in the mood with tAt teacher lah.
And bla..bla..bla..
After school, go home straight, accompany by, dearest sis.
Then, reached home lie down at my bed, and suddenly i asleep.
My sister wake me up and asked me to bathe.
SO i did, and i continue my sleeping.
Wake up at 4.30 cux mum going work and rasydan otw back to school.
Prepare for hym food and then i played computer.
My body aching, i'm having a high fever now, and i'm havinga headache.
I did vomit, and it come out water.!EEE, disgusting..

After hearing this song,[SAKITI HATIKU] make me think, what i did wrong? Am i like that? Hais):

Why is it my life like this.?Why is it i have to take all the pain? Why is it life is unfair?Why is it when bad things happen it end so late yet why is it when good things happen it end so fast!Why?? Why is it i have to faced it alone? WHy? WHy is it my family dont care abt me.Why? Where is the love and care towards a parents?Where is their listening ear?WHRE?! Am i leaving alone solving my own problem, studying alone! People out therer with problems, tell me how to be strong! Tell me what i can do!Tell me. Don't you feel like giving up?Dont you? Life is to short to be unhappy but, No matter how hard i laugh, how wide i smile, the heart i have now, its really hurt! I feel i'm a loser, idiot, stupid!

I hate my life, It just doesn't seem right, Me being here on Earth, Me being here on this f*cking planet! I hate my life, Parent nagging and arguing at home, Being told I’m depressed! I hate my life, The only person keeping me from dying is her, The girl I loved, My sister! I hate my life, I hate it so much, Why was I chosen to live in this world? Why????? I hate my life, Everything is made so complicated, It's like I’m in a time-machine showing me what my future is! My future is me holding a knife to my heart, and slowly pushing it in, slower and slower because I just rally love the pain! It may sound awesome to you, but it's not, it's painful to live, to even breathe, because I don't want to live, I want to be dead, I want to with the girl I love because I know I can't be with them, the only people who hear my heart! I don't want to keep living because it's so painful and it hurts so much! I don't to live because I hate life so much that I have to block out the pain of breathing! I hate my life!